Depression fucked me up big time again this quarter. (Well, it's mostly depression. There's so social anxiety mixed in as well that exacerbated it, and now we're looking into the possibility that I might have ADD. Comorbidity sucks.) Goddammit, 2012 was supposed to be *better*! And the quarter started off so well too. I just want to be functional; ( Read more... )

The Firefly-themed production of Pirates of Penzance that I teched for at the beginning of the quarter is getting a reprise! Someone wants to set up a big new scholarship and as publicity for it (don't ask me what the logic of this is; I have no clue) they're paying us to run the show for another weekend, in June ( Read more... )

Out of my entire life, this has been one of the years I've changed the most. I started off in one of the lowest places I've been in my life, wrapped up in Internet addiction and depression that isolated me from the people around me and caused me to crash and burn academically. But despite trying to hide it in shame and denial, I was found out and ( Read more... )

I need to go away, probably for a quite a while, possibly forever (though I really hope it doesn't come to that ( Read more... )

So I'm one of those people who's very introverted, doesn't make friends very easily, and I'm always kind of insecure about my friendships. I have this chronic fear that people don't really care about me, that I'm clingy and pathetic and care about them way more than they care about me, that my friends are just Not That Into Me and I know it's ( Read more... )